A place for me to work stuff out and to post things that interest me.
Most of us can, if we choose,
make this world either a palace or a prison.
~Lord Avebury
I choose a palace.
~TKF
Do not let your fire go out,
spark by irreplaceable spark,
in the hopeless swamps of the approximate,
the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all.
Do not let the hero in your soul perish,
in lonely frustration for the life you deserved,
but have never been able to reach.
Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won.
It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours.
~Ayn Rand
The democratic society's mythology of equality with its
attendant erasure of difference is an impossibility
in an actual, lived sense.
Therefore, according to this view, this
imaginary erasure cannot achieve an
actual democracy, because a sense of
community can only come with the recognition of difference.
~Slavoj Zizek, as paraphrased by Catherine M. Soussloff
Links!
A brand new link! Check it out!
deviantART
I thought the place was very cool. Oh, and all you Alias fans, you can find a very nice wallpaper there--
or rather, here--and a gorgeous Evanescence one, too!
Watcher's Diary
Slayage; The Online International Journal of Buffy Studies
Convert just about anything
Comes in really handy when you want to convert fahrenheit to celcius and vice versa!
Links to 100s of free calculators online
Everything from your due date to how much a house payment would be to a regular calculator
Reference Guide to Chicago Manual of Style
Dictionary, Encyclopedia, Atlas & Almanac
Quotation Search Engine
Complete HTML True Color Chart
Epicurious Recipes
Inn Recipes; Recipes for all Occasions
JobStar-Resumes & Cover Letters Advice
Overstock.com: Up to 80% off most items
Ediblenature.com
Things My Girlfriend & I Have Argued About
(Trust me--you'll be laughing outloud!)
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Beyond the Invisible
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The tale of the world is like a tree.
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Sturdily rooted in the past, the tale's branches spread out through the days that come. The many stories that make up its substance
unfold from bud to leaf to dry memory and back again, event connecting event like the threadwork of a spider's web, so that each creature of the world plays its part, understanding only aspects of the overall narrative, and perceiving, each with its particular talents, only glimpses
of the Great Mystery that underlies it all.
~Charles de Lint, Moonheart
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Gray Days
For the first time since returning to Lexington, I'm really depressed. I can't find a decent job and I don't know why.
I send out resumes and never even get an acknowledgement. I fill out applications for jobs that they hire just about anyone for and never get a call. What few (3 so far) interviews I get either go badly or I simply get the same old, "I'm not going to get this job" vibe. That isn't me being insecure--I'm 100% accurate thus far on whether or not I'm going to hear from someone ever again.
Today, for instance... I looked great. I carefully picked my outfit, did my makeup, and even put my hair up in a twist. I answered the questions thoughtfully and made sure to come across confident and sincere without getting too personal or effusive. However, I could definitely tell she wasn't particularly impressed. In fact, I started to get the "I'm not going to get this job" vibe about half way through. then she said, "Are you an expert in Excel?" I told her I had some experience with it. She said, dismissively, "I need someone with exceptional Excel skills. Frankly, I could do something, myself, faster than training someone else to do it." She then started gathering up her papers. I told her that I pick up new software quickly and would be willing to train on my own time and take a lower starting salary but she just said, "We'll be in touch."
So, no, I'm fairly certain I didn't get the job. Meanwhile, the bills are getting higher with the cold weather and Jerry is justifiably freaking. I'm just a big financial drain. A money pit. I contribute nothing to the household but higher bills and stress (financial and kids).
Why won't anyone hire me??? I can't even get a pawn shop or a check-cashing place to grant me an interview! Meanwhile, all the places I really want to work don't call either.
*SIGH!*
The weather is overcast and cold. Pretty much perfect for my state of mind at the moment when we don't even know how we'll pay the bills.
And in other news...
Allen moved back in, after signing a contract I drew up about specific rules he must follow or move out immediately. He ran out of money and neither of us could let him sleep outside in 4 degree Fahrenheit weather, but I wasn't letting him back in without his understanding that this was only temporary and that after he pays us back everything he borrowed or stole, he has to provide me with a viable plan and a timetable for moving out on his own.
So far, he's been very good about abiding by the rules. We'll see how long that lasts.
2:19 PM
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